I've been asked many times how I managed to get through lossing my only child to suicide and it's always a struggle to answer. Truth is I have no idea but there are things that helped and things that didn't. That much I can share. So this morning I wrote a page about grieving
“You have power over your mind - not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.” ― Marcus Aurelius The effects COVID-19 has had on our families and communitiies has been devastating. Job losses, marital breakups, anger, grief, and misinformation have made 2020 a year most of us would rather forget. COVID-19
What heals you comes down to how able you are to deal with what hurt you. Healing needs to be whole and involve the deep you, the child you. When my daughter died from suicide I went through years of therapy and didn't once delve into trying to heal from loosing her. My healing
Since I was a child I've been drawn to the grounding power of nature. The still quite, the russling leaves, the sounds of life and the big sky overhead. It all draws me in and folds me up with peace. We've been planning another road trip for the past few months.
One of the earliest incidents of trauma I can remember happened at a dentist's office. I was at most seven years old and when I look back at it now I can see the impact it had on my life. It was the worst breach of trust there could be and to this day I have problems trusting people in authority situations. I never think they'll do the right thing, ever. I learned to deal with most of the shit in my life on my own and it was mentally damaging as hell.