Today marked another milestone, 10 years without Rehtaeh. 10 birthdays missed.

I was starting to feel really anxious about today. With Christmas coming it usually gets sad and this year we’re living close family for the first time and experiencing some new feelings.

Today we thought it would be best not to be alone so we headed to my brother’s place. His two-year-old granddaughter was visiting and, when we pulled into the driveway, she was there in the window, waiting for us so she could greet us with a big wave.

And everything about today got better. Rehtaeh used to do that when she was two, greet me with a big wave while looking out the window.

Today I’m remembering Rehtaeh for all the times she melted my heart with her smile and wave.