It’s taken me a long time to face the demon of depression that has taken so much. This morning I canceled a talk I had looked forward to for months but now that the date is near, I just can’t do it.
Everything starts to come back in a horrible way when I ponder all that was and try to put something together that makes sense. I’m lost in this again and I worked so hard to find a place of peace.
Saturday morning I found myself angry at Rehtaeh and she doesn’t deserve that.
I’m exhausted, I’ve been exhausted for years.
I won’t be accepting opportunities to speak about Rehtaeh anymore but I am also so thankful and grateful I was able to share her life with so many people.
I have to save myself and let go.
I really do miss her.